Sadness

how much sadness can a single being hold?
how much sadness before they break?
before thier heart lies dead and cold?

lonliness is my sanctuary
my hiding place
i will not let you in
i fear the pain you may cause

my pathetic heart can take no more
i've built a wall and i will not let you in
I'm nursing my already open sore

lonliness is my prison
my self constructed jail
I cannot let you in
I feal the pain you have caused

and when i let myself cry
the pain was just too much
i willed my heart and eyes to be dry

lonliness is my sanctuary
it keeps my heart afloat
I cannot let you in
I will not feel the pain

i thought you were my friend
but my heart will continue breaking
untill my bitter end

Lonliness is killing me
my secret demise
I will not let you in
you cannot break me again

you left me over somthing stupid
you ruined that which I held most dear



i've run out of rhyims to express my hidden pain
and so i will just continue on
slowly killing myself
I will never let another in becuase of you
no one will ever be as close as i let you be
and this desicsion is what is killing me

i cannot help myself
you were my strength, my safty net
you stood when i could not
you voiced what i could not say

and we on our own will never be what we were together.


okay so that was a little depressing but it got it out
man i am soooooo lonely here at home, the only people i can talk to is you peeps on facebook and blogger, no actual contact with humans is killing me
but it is my own fault, i mean if i liked going out more maybe i woudln't be sooooooo lonly.
right?



Liars and fools; sons and failuresThieves will always say
Lost and found; ailing wanderersHealers always say
Whores and angels; men with problemsLeavers always say
Broken hearted; separatedOrphans always say
War creators; racial hatersPreachers always say
Distant fathers; fallen warriorsGivers always say
Pilgrim saints; lonely widowsUsers always say
Fearful mothers; watchful doubtersSaviors always say

Sometimes I cannot forgiveAnd these days,
mercy cuts so deepIf the world was how it should be,
maybe I could get some sleepWhile I lay,
I dream we're better,Scales were gone and faces lightWhen we wake,
we hate our brotherWe still move to hurt each other
Sometimes I can close my eyes,
And all the fear that keeps me silent falls below my heavy breathing,
What makes me so badly bent?
We all have a chance to murder
We all feel the need for wonder
We still want to be reminded that the pain is worth the thunder
Sometimes when I lose my grip,
I wonder what to make of heaven
All the times I thought to reach up
All the times I had to give
Babies underneath their beds
Hospitals that cannot treat
all the wounds that money causes,
All the comforts of cathedrals
All the cries of thirsty children
this is our inheritance
All the rage of watching mothers -
this is our greatest offense
Oh my God
Oh my God
Oh my God


"Oh my God" jars of clay